HOW STUPID! i realized only now that i've already made TOO many mistakes (at a young age of 18!), mistakes that will ALWAYS cause LOW self-respect everytime they'd cross my mind. i hate thinking about those stupidity but can't help it and i really wanna give myself a good kick from behind because of that. why do i have to be so WEAK to keep myself from thinking about any of them? why can't i just shut them away FOREVER and say "good riddance" so i won't get to think of them ever again? what do i do to RESIST all the "troubles" that i tend to meet and do over and over again (even if i do it in different situations)? or wait! am i just being TOO paranoid thinking about those stupid situations and actions? when in fact every one else (well, almost) has done, if not the same, even worse than what i tend to do everytime i commit the same sort of mistakes! guess i'm just being mad at myself and at the same time guilty because i know in myself that i just need something (badly!) which i thought i could get by doing those mistakes and i just can't be too responsible for my actions because they keep on bugging and haunting me like WORST nightmares one could ever have. i often tell myself that i know what to do because i know what i'm doing based on what i know is right but then seems like things just can't turn out the way they should. maybe it's like i SHOULD know what to do because i also SHOULD know what i'm doing based on what i know SHOULD BE the right thing to do.

A scar that’s been made to a heart.....goes long.....and makes the person who wears that scar miserable....it’s worse than a physical injury or scar.....a scar that’s been made on a heart is worse....nobody can see how much you’re hurting inside....you bleed invisible blood and you always seem to change for the worse because of all the pain......and....there never seems to be a person who understands what you’re going through and help you cope with the sadness.....

And when someone or something somehow helps you....even if it’s just a little bit.... it seems to just bring all your sadness out to the open.....and the tears seem like it won’t ever stop........this is a scar that has been made to a person’s heart......

and once the tears started...it doesn’t seem to stop.......

The worst thing in the world is to fall into a one-sided love

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."